Shafiqul Alam/ Bureau Chief at AFP News Agency
Mahmudullah had the talent to make it big in all formats of international cricket. But then, right from the start of his career, he has been consumed by inner demons and a massive fear of himself. So overwhelming was the self-doubt that he rarely stood upright on the field. And you have barely seen him smiling broadly on the wicket. You would see only a hint of a smile on his face after a spate of sixes. Demons would haunt him all the time–even when
he was in the pavilion.
Mahmudulah resembled Habibul Bashar Sumon, the former Bangladesh captain. Both have wide variety of stroke play which would dazzle crowd. They were sheer joy to watch. But then both were confused by a nonexistent fear of their own vulnerabilities. And every time they got out cheaply, this fear would get bigger. Every time, they would lose wicket, a self doubt would engulf them and haunt them until the next time they walk to the crease to bat again.
Mahmudullah could easily become the best batsman of his country. He could easily shatter every record in Bangladesh batting.
He could dazzle crowd far longer than the five centuries and handful of half centuries he has scored in a 12-year career. But he was like a talented school boy who would outshine all other students during the class tests, but who could never excel in the bigger tests –exams like SSC, HSC, DU, BCS and BUET –when they mattered most.
Still, we will remember you for all the happy moments, the sheer joy of watching you when you were on song and your unfulfilled talents!!